All about my life and loves, and above all my quest for a creative life.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Taking a deep breath.
I have been an infrequent blogger.
These past two months have been some of the hardest months of my life. I forced myself to live a lie. I recently ended a relationship that was draining me. This relationship left me with nothing to give to myself. The little bits that I possessed, I had to give to almost strangers, my patients.
There has been a lack of art. I should have seen just by that how sick I really was. If I look back on my life the periods that there was little art were the most unsatisfying times of my life. Times that I just wasn't the authentic me.
That is all over now.
I can feel my soul waking up, the burning in my fingers to create has started again. That is what art has always been to me, a deep burning desire to create that if unfulfilled would rip me apart. It is my soul in an tangible way. It is the physical evidence of
It is so good to be at peace.
Now my soul can heal.
(The photo is an old piece of mine that I did while taking a life drawing class)
Hello! I am hoping that this blog will be a place of bliss. I am not trying to sell anything but just have a space in the internet that is mine to create.
I am an artist that is trying to find my own way. I work as a nurse to pay the bills but my soul has always lived in what I make with my hands. Join me in my life, loves and artistic pursuits. I don't promise it will always be a pretty journey, but it is all mine and I love it all the same.
I must create a system or be enslaved by another mans; I will not reason and compare: my business is to create.
All true artists, whether they know it or not, create from a place of no-mind, from inner stillness. ::: Eckhart Tolle :::
I found I could say things with color and shapes that I couldn't say any other way - things I had no words for.
There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.